lady i swear by all flowers

13 February 2012

 

Their Martinmas Smocks, knit over the summer with an eye towards growing boys and a very busy fall.  They fit quite loose, especially in the shoulders, but the details are so very sweet.

Vests are just about my favorite handknit item for little ones.  So practical, providing layered warmth for a variety of weathers. 

The pattern is fairly feminine, but I omitted the picot cast-on and the wool is tweedy enough to work, I think. 

It's nice to remember that I used to knit.  Summer is just a few short months away...

 

Love,
+Chelsea

12 February 2012

The weekends are so much more significant, now.

 

Hope yours is as lovely,
+Chelsea

31 January 2012

My words are elsewhere right now, so I can give you this, Pan at the park yesterday, Pan in his tunnel.  I'm sorry it's a bit shaky, a bit blurry, Sebastian took it on his phone.

At the end he is saying "Save me!" which is now his favorite game.  Always his train or a wooden animal or he himself is in need of rescue.  It still catches me a little off-guard, hearing his call for help in another room, I have to remind myself he is playing.  

He plays so well.

 

+Chelsea 

21 January 2012

On the Williamsburg Bridge with the Slaven-Davis Family from Paul Kruse on Vimeo.

On this snowy, snowy day in Brooklyn, a small bit of summer, leftover and warmed up when it's needed most.

I'm sorry I've been away so long, the past months have been difficult and full, culminating now in a much-needed shift, a move to a new apartment, all in the midst of the start of the new term at school and a very dry spell at Sebastian's job. 

So, yes, this sunshine is much needed just now.  Thank you my sweet Paul.

 

Love, and more soon,

+Chelsea

6 December 2011

Its rainy here, but warm. 

The boys had new wool slippers from St. Nicholas, a bit of chocolate and a new book. 

I've made all the preparations for the season -- a small tree lighting our window, a string of advent goody bags hung across the room, the candles and blessings at meals -- but my heart isn't here. 

I'm not quite sure where it is.

I have these two distinct roles right now -- as student / writer and as mama -- and I'm struggling with moving gracefully between the two.  I love them both.  Giving up one or the other is not an option.  But my head -- and heart -- can't seem to keep up in the shift between there and home.  And so, often, I feel like I am failing at both. 

I am spacey at school and short-tempered at home.  We've run out of money again and it is my fault.  I have designated times for studying during the week -- there isn't any on the weekends, as Sebastian works doubles -- and I end up wasting it, unfocused and unproductive. 

How is this done?  Done well?  With joy?  Some things will shift, I know.  We've set forth in this with great intention, our goals clear, and there are many things that are lining up nicely -- there is encouragement in that.  But after school, there will be work, a job (or, jobs).  And I'm guessing with that there will be similar challenges in finding balance.

How is it done?

 

+Chelsea 

 

27 November 2011

It was a beautiful Thanksgiving -- big and full and loud and delicious.  Our dear new friends and our Brooklyn family and my sister from across the country all crowded around the table in our 350 square foot apartment.  There was turkey and gingerbread stuffing, cranberry pomegranate relish, three kinds of pie, a pumpkin bread pudding, specially concocted cocktails -- we are still feasting, and probably will be for many days more. 

At the end of the day, Sebastian took my hand and said it was perfect.  That everyone was so present and happy to be there. 

Lately I've been feeling fairly weighed down by the responsibility and effort of this decision we've made to be here.  It can be overwhelming, and often I do not handle it with much grace.  But I am so grateful that we are here, that I have a honey who has committed to being here with me, who will hold my hand and be present with me, regardless of whether we are feasting or struggling. 

I am so grateful, too, for this space.  For the friendships I've made here, the kind words that warm like nothing else I know. 

I hope you are well and happy.

Thank You,
+Chelsea

 

18 November 2011

Happy Birthday, my sweet one!

 

Love,
+Mama

PS: his birth story, from THREE years ago, can be found here...

10 November 2011

This month, the habit blog is posting open submissions: one photograph and a 30-words-or-less caption that gets at the essence of your day. 

It's a little bit addicting, you may find yourself thinking in 30-word phrases all day long... Which, when I'm working on a story (or, now, a novel...!!!), is often how I think, anyways. 

Their flickr pool is here.   

 

+Chelsea

9 November 2011

 

Laundry day in the city.

With these little critters, this walk to the laundrymat happens several days each week. 

I love seeing things the way they see them.

 

+Chelsea

8 November 2011

Our little corners, still settling, but each time different and quite nice.  

We have lived in this apartment for about eight months now, and have spent all of those months unpacking, fixing, making it us.  And when our lease is up in March?  It isn't very convenient to live where we live, but I really can't bear the thought of another move, another year of settling into all the corners of a new space, trying to own something that doesn't belong to you...

 

+Chelsea